Decisions

This week, our doctors appointments were a lot of what we had expected but didn't want to hear. The ultrasound revealed that Cade's head is rapidly growing larger. All measurements except his head circumference measured right on track with his gestational age. Consistent with previous ultrasounds, his head continues to grow substantially bigger because of the hydrocephalus. This week, his head measured about 7 weeks ahead. This presents additional risks at delivery. Because I will have a third C-section, this makes things a little easier. However, even with a C-section, we have to choose a point to deliver because of the added risks to me. Our doctors believe that with the rate Cade's head is growing, we will need to deliver around 32 weeks gestation. Therefor, we have set a C-section date for October 10th.

This was one of the days I have been dreading. The choosing of the date. For many reasons I've not wanted to face this. I don't like that it is our decision and not God's. What would He have us do? I understand there are so many factors to weigh. Our situation is not like most. I just thought we'd have more time. More time to feel his kicks and hiccups. More time to know he is happy and alive. More time to just hold on.

We've done, and are doing, so many things to prepare for our third child. Things I never imagined I would have to do. Things no parent should ever have to do. Please continue to pray that we are able to make the decisions that are best for Cade and our family, but most of all, bring glory to God.

The support we have around us is as close to God in flesh as you can get. We have seen God's hand in so many areas of this terrible situation. I wish I could put into words all the things that have been done for us. Cards, hugs, tears, prayers, words, love, pictures, songs, banners, teddy bears, phone calls, time. The list is endless. We know it is God who gives us strength to make it through this time, day by day, hour by hour, second by second. But the support from our family, friends, and doctors is a blessing beyond words. Thank you is not enough.